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Monday, July 23, 2007
I am in love...i'm in lovethat one sentence can make ppl curious ^_^ hihihi... whom am i in love with? Ermm... i'm still in love with him. not to be mentioned here. talking about in love, i am ready to have a heart broken also. if one day all things just won't happen as i wish today. My relationship with him now, i cannot say i'm using my feeling. no, i'm not growing in my feeling toward him, but i'm growing in trusting him more. well about his birthday, yesterday was supposed to be his very happy birthday but not to me. i was sick. low blood pressure. again. sigh. i just sent him sms-es to wish him a happy birthday. but no reply until today. sigh. he was so busy partying until doesnt have time to reply my sms. i love him though. he is the one i can depend on. Labels: oh love~ posted by Melisa at 10:10 PM| 
Sunday, July 22, 2007
happy birthday!happy birthday!Today is Sunday and the good news today is his birthday! But here i am and he is there. i can't celebrate his b'day.. =( From here i wish you a very happy birthday :) and wish all your dreams come true. Congratz for your soft opening Magic shop ^_^ Now the bad news: tomorrow must go back to work. haiyoh... Labels: celebration posted by Melisa at 9:32 PM|
decisionToday i give Yinsan a yes answer because i'm afraid later God will punish me like He did to pharaoh. I don't wanna wait the worst then i repent. Just before i change my mind then i tell Yinsan. I surrender to God my will. Do whatever You want to me Lord. Yes i accept her as my shepherd but... yea... not that easy. I try to deal with the character and attitude. Did i make the correct decision? Will i regret it? Labels: decision posted by Melisa at 12:30 AM|
Thursday, July 19, 2007
perasaan hati saat ini: ndak karuan.mbuh!sedih-senang-semangat-males-marah-sebel-galau-stress-frustrasi-khawatir-waswas pokoke campur aduk udah bisa bikin gado-gado lengkap. hmmm wes suwe gak nulis pake basa campuran ini. terutama pake glossary basa jawa. heahahah.... Kalo ada yang gak mudheng ya maklum... mumpung setres ini skalian mengeluarkan uneg2.. kenapa saya merasa campur aduk seperti itu soalnya banyak pikiran alias banyak yg gak sopan tanpa diundang mampir minta dipikirin. masalah duwit yang lagi seret, kebetulan bulan ini sedang kebakaran kantong, alias kantong kering heuehueheue... seharusnya bisa cepat belalu tetapi ditambah satu lagi yg ikut ngerecoki itu. itu tuh itu, wes dak usa ta sebutno da sini. ga baek buat kesehatan. yang laen masalah perkoncoan. asli tu orang apa sih maune. gak jelas gitu cari pekara. maksud hati bukan ingin mengipasi api yang uda menyala, tapi de'en seolah ngajak gitu. wong ya wes tau lo ki saya orang kaya kepriben. tapi masi aja situ terus kaya gitu. jangan salahkan daku kalo nantinya jadi makin runyam. saya akuin saya bukan orang yang mudah diatur apalagi dikendalikan. orang kepala batu kaya begini dilawan sama kepala batu juga. lah apa gak hancur jadinya dua-duanya nanti. situ yang minta ya masa bodo deh. maksud hati ingin mengelak dari hujan batu (apa coba) wes makin lama nulis makin gajebo nih. biarin lah skali2 ini. heuahhaha... maklum ya para pembaca, saya lagi frustrasi. wakakka. mungkin konco2 saya bakal ngguyu ngakak baca postingan ini. dan komen mereka uda kedengeran di kuping saya yaitu 'nggak banget' heauahhaha bahasa apaan ini yang dipake. tapi begitulah adanya. hal ini terinspirasi oleh 2 tmen saya yg juga kl nulis blog pake bhasa beginian. perkenalkan thelma dan zerlin. Zerlin, saya baru baca blognya bbrp hari yang lalu di salah satu link punya tmen saya juga. jadi dia sebenernya 2nd degree friend of mine. mbulet. alias tmennya tmen saya. hari ini hari yang terasa cepet. uda mo malem minggu lagi. tapi ntah napa rasanya ga semangat gituh. kalo gak tau apa yang dipengen, alias ga punya tujuan, itu rasanya bner2 ga enak. lebih ga enak lagi kalo kita punya 2 keinginan yang bertentangan. satu bilang iya, satu blg nggak. satu mo ke kiri satu mo ke kanan. lah terus mo ambil jalan tengah gimana? keinginan satu saya adalah pingin bisa nyulap smua masalah menjadi hilang. kayak david coperfield yang bisa menghilangkan patung liberti. mbok ya skalian masalah saya dihilangkan juga. dan ga perlu dibalekno. rasanya pingin treak saya uda ngga sanggup lagi. duh! tapi didalam diri saya emang ada suara-suara ga sopan yg pada berantem sndiri. ada suara yg bilang saya bisa, ada yg blg ga bisa. mungkin memang tidak bisa. tidak sanggup lagi. smua ga ada yang bisa sesempurna yang saya bayangkan dan mimpikan. smua itu hanya ada didalam mimpi. dan mimpi akan pecah pada waktu kita bangun tidur. jadi pada akhirnya saya harus bangun dari mimpi. dan menerima kenyataan. sepahit apapun harus dijalani, namun terkadang memang sulit menjadi anak yang lurus,baek dan biasa2 saja. yang bikin saya heran biasanya saya tuh orang yg bisa cpet mutusi sesuatu. jadi pikir bntar gitu uda tau apa yg harus dilakuan. tapi kali ini ga tau rasane tu lamaa banget gitu masi blom tau juga. takut dengan segala resiko dan konsekuensi yang ada nantinya kali ya? tapi dalam kamus saya kan bunyinya gini: jangan pernah takut melangkah, seandainya salah melangkah pun selalu ada jalan kembali. namun orang yang ga pernah berani mengambil langkah pertama tidak akan pernah tau apa yang ada di ujung jalan. terjemahannya: don't ever feel afraid to take a step. even later you make a wrong way, there will always be a way back. but if you never try to take a step, you will never know what will happen, what's there in the end of the journeykesimpulannya? mbuh! heuahahhaha references: wes suwe= sudah lama = long time ndak karuan = tidak menentu = undescribeable. uneg2= beban pikiran = burden mudheng = mengerti = understand gajebo = ga jelas bo = not clear kepriben = bagaimana Labels: random posted by Melisa at 10:29 PM|
Monday, July 16, 2007
There are 2 voices keep arguing in my mind.2 thoughts...One side is 'yes', another one is 'no'. I mean i always have to choices to choose. Well it's better than i have no choice at all. But it really makes me confused. I really don't know what to choose. In one side i want to follow my will, in another side i don't want to take risk. What i do now is just stand still. Look to the left, look to the right, but i don't move at all. I stand in the crossroad. Which way i should choose... I can't imagine what's on that way... A thick mist seem covered it well until i can't see it through. Until a certain time, i need to take a step forward. IF .. i take the wrong path... actually i always have my way back. I just can simply turn to the previous point and choose another path. But seemed i don't have courage to try. Easy to decide but hard to be done. It's very difficult for me to accept someone's character especially if he/she is going to be somebody to me. Not only to be someone. I won't care about if he/she is nobody to me. i mean just a usual friend. I won't care so much about his/her character and i also can accept whatever he/she is. But to be somebody closer, some more to be my mentor. He/she is definitely must be better. I see she can't be an example to me. She likes to bully people also. She likes to do whatever she wants and doesn't think about other people. She won't care about people. And just easily take people for granted. Why i should take her as my mentor and give her my respect? To take her as my mentor or not brings no difference for me. . Labels: random posted by Melisa at 8:24 PM|
Friday, July 06, 2007
Today we celebrate our colleagues' birthday. Francis and Benny.070707Well nothing much to say. It's always nice to celebrate our friend's birthday but.. somehow make me broke! This month i need to spend a lot of money to buy gifts. oh may. Well i still wish them the happiest birthday, and hope all their wishes come true. :) Here some pics:  The birthday boy and birthday man :) The athlete and the coach. :D The gank.Actually Benny's birthday is tomorrow (07/07/07) The good luck day! Mwahahha... But since we have a limited budget, so we celebrate them together. Labels: celebration, worklife posted by Melisa at 4:34 PM|
Thursday, July 05, 2007
Recipe.frustratedFood name: frustrated. Ingredients: * 1 bowl of angers * 2 sp of worries * 5 tsp of sadness * 3 cubes of stress * 1 liter of tears * 5 slices of headache * a stack of undone-jobs * 0.5 liter of pressure * 200 ml of bad mood * 5 sp of deadlines How to cook: Mixed all ingredients and put in oven for few days. Side effect: * few complications such as heart attack, sleep disorder,etc. Labels: recipe posted by Melisa at 10:24 PM|
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