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* Why Jesus Matters
* Menikah adalah bunuh diri
* Battlefield of Mind
* Dateable
* Winning with People
* Boy meets girl
* Purpose Driven Life (#)
* Be a people person
* Making peace with your mom
* Hand Me Another Brick
Goals
January
* Read bible Genesis 1 - Exodus 12, Matthew 1 - Mark 3
* Read 1 photoshop book (at least)
* Buy gifts for my family
February
* Take a language course
* Read bible Exodus 13 - Numbers 2, Mark 4 - Luke 16
March
* Learn IELTS
* Read bible Numbers 3 - Deuteronomy 28, Luke 17 - Acts 3
* Pay Church Camp Fee by end of the month
April
* Unit Easter Camp (10-12 Apr)
* Read bible Deuteronomy 29 - 1 Sam 5, Acts 4 - Romans 6
* Take a mandarin course
* Write a daily devotional journal
May
* Start reading SAP books
* Write a daily devotional journal
June
* Church Camp (11-14 June)
* Jakarta (27-30 June)
* Write a daily devotional journal
July
* Exercise!!!
* Write a daily devotional journal
August
* Go Holiday KK (8-11 Agt)
* Write a daily devotional journal
* Exercise
September
* Parent's coming
* Write a daily devotional journal
* Exercise
October
* Exercise
* Write a daily devotional journal
November
* Exercise
* Run 5km
* Write a daily devotional journal
December
* Exercise
* Run 10km
* Take IELTS Test
* Write a daily devotional journal
* Resolution Review
Today i go to church... we have a street evax ^^ Vonny n I went together to approach indonesian ppl @ orchard rd. We suddenly heard 2 girls spoke indonesian. Then i asked Vonny to sit near them and listen to them. They really spoke indonesian, so i asked them 'dari indo juga ya?' They said 'iya'. Mrk dari jakarta... dan kita ngobrol2 gt... Namanya kl ga salah Puteri, Rina ama Nicky... Puteri ama Rina juga lagi ketemu pas itu ama Nicky... and we invited them to join mooncake festival next week. But they said that they will contact us later... bcoz they want to go to chinatown to see firework next week. They love to drink and go to pub. I guess they will be shocked if they come 4 our mooncake festival =p Yeaa.. but not bad to try huh?
Today my senior has come back from China.. so we start discuss again about my program ^^ I almost done... but there is few bugs show up again! ~_~ oh no! But it's ok! At least next Monday i have something to do =p hehe... One of my colleagues said that my senior is like my 'ta ke' (older brother) Yea... maybe... actually bcoz he is older than me then i rather consider him as elder brother than my boss =p But it's very nice to discuss with him. I feel comfortable and enjoy... maybe because we came from the same country.
Yesterday i activated my XL card =). So my friends in Indo should be happy now... bcoz they can reply my sms often and FREE! But if i want to sms them i MUST pay! Huhuhuh... poor me.... But it's ok, at least i can keep contact with my friends... ^^ So please send me sms-es =p. I would love to read your msgs.. but i don't promise that i will always reply your sms-es.... hehheee..... Next time i'll write about my colleagues.... Let me collect the puzzle first... ^^ Cya!
Everyone fells pain but surely, after suffering satisfaction will arrive Even with sports, studying or other ordeals With life, it's like that for everyone If we can beat the pain, on the other side, a rainbow of happiness awaits us That will definitely become a treasure Let's believe in that
Step by step
When my existence seems to disappear, I will look for the place where I can do the best I can From now'on, I'll deliberate slowly I won't be impatient I won't be greedy I won't give up Because everyone takes things step by step
If I were a flower, then now I'd be a bud I shall treasure the beginning of my youth without any regrets
Deep inside my heart I have mother who always believes in me From now onwards as well, please continue to look after me. I'm sorry to have troubled you so much.
Why did this disease choose me? I cannot carry it, if it's just for the word "fate"
I want to build a time machine and revisit the past I it weren't for this disease, I might even be in love I want to cling to someone's arm so badly
I really don't want to say this such as " I want to go back to how things were before" I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on
Even if it's like that, I still want to stay here Because this is the place where I am
If I look up at the sky after falling down the blue sky is also today stretching limitlessly and smiles at me... I am alive
The sound "ma" "wa" "ba" and "n" have become hard to pronounce. I can only breathe out air instead of saying it so I can't communicate with each others Recently, I have been talking to myself a lot I didn't like it before, but to practice pronouncing, I have been to do it. I will not give up on speeking
Reality is too cruel, too brutal I don't even have the right to dream As I think about the future, the tears will come out again
from 1 litre tear movie
May 23rd, 1988 12:55am. Kifuji Aya 25 years old lay asleep forever. Surrounded by flowers, she passed away
Hari ini pagi2 uda hujan... Turun dari kondo... liat langit kok gelep yah? Terpaksa dech naek lagi buat ngambil payung (ketinggalan). Dan ternyata emang bner hujan... tapi hujannya pas gw uda duduk di dlm bus. Jadinya payungnya agak ga kepake sih... =p tapi gpp dech... males lipet2nya n keringinnya =)
Berasa uda dinginnnn bgt pagi2... tapi tyt d kantor ga sdingin biasanya.. hoho... krn pagi2 uda hujan, jd acnya dikecilin kali ya... Hari ini seperti biasa testing aplikasi lagi di device. Kebetulan colleague gw kaga masuk jd gw bisa monopoli lagi komputernya =p
Masih ada 2 function yg lom bisa... # function buat ngeprint invoice # function buat synchronize database ama database migration. dari pocket database - desktop database - server Huhuhu,... Dari pocket ga bisa langsung masukin k server.. krn beda DBMS. gimana ya bisa menyingkat prosesnya? Dibagian itu masih lom bisa... =,( Duh gimana donk? Ada yg bisa ga? Bantuin gw donk... T_T
Sekarang baru jem [15.15] Masih 2 jem 15 menit lagi baru pulang. Mo ngapain uda butek. Uda donload themes, uda buka2 forum, uda email2... uda chatting... uda abis yg mo dikerjain. Nge-blog dech akhirnya. =p
Pengen donload mp3 sih... tapi takut.... takut ketangkep polisi.hehehe... dsini kl donload2 gitu serem. Soalnya ada 3rd degreenya temennya sodara gw... Jadi kl di frenster namanya uda extended network =p, itu ketangkep pas dia donload2 lagu gt... Trus suru bayar denda $1000 atau gimana gitu.... Wew #_# syereme...
Sebenernya bbrp hr yg lalu ada kejadian yg menyebalkan... Inget pun jadi sebel. Mo ditulis ga ya? -_-' Ceritanya itu, gw iseng2 chat ama satu org, sengaja gw mo bikin marah ni org. Soalnya gw mo tau ni org tu sbnernya kaya apa. Dannnnnn sodara2, kesan awal yg gw tangkep ttg org ini tyt SALAH! * orgnya ga SEBAIK yg dibilang temen gw... * orgnya ga seGENTLE yg dia tunjukkan. * orgnya kl salah, ga mo ngaku salah * ga mo ngalahan kl ama ce.(mlh bilang 'tar bisa jd budak ce!') * too childish * suka ngejelek2 in orang laen (ngejelek2in roommate gw.. ama temen gw yg uda blg dia baek) * pendendam (nginget2 kesalahan org ampe detil bgt walo uda lama berlalu) * suka sok tau ('km pasti pake kartu xx ya') -> es teh bgt sih * suka ngeyel... * ga mo dikritik * ga tau bedanya gentleman ama budak cewek * ember... * ... dan masih byk lagi yg ga mungkin gw sebut satu2 krn kl inget bikin gw makin sebel aja. Dan gw sempat bilang 'nyesel sih uda kenal ama dia ' Sebenernya gw mo bilang, 'nyesel uda percaya ama dia' =p (*salah kata*) tapi uda males ngejelasinnya lagi. biarin dech...
Yang tadinya awal2 gw smpat bingung mana yg harus gw percaya,dia atau roommate gw.... sekarang i can decide... hohoho.... Walo gw juga keras kepala, tapi plg ga masih nge logika lah.. Kl mang gw tau salah ya ga akan ngotot... Haiyo... pantesan aja dia kaga punya tmen cewek. Terang aja kaya gitu mana ada ce yg mo dkt ama dia... heuheuee...
[15.26] <--- Ya ampun baru jalan 11 menit... Duh waktu serasa lambat sekali berjalan... V_V
Haiyohhhh i just typed my fav song's lyrics and when i published it... it cropped! T_T d*mn! So here i write again.. becoz i really like this song ^_^ hehe... The title is Only Human, by K. It's a japanese song... ost 1 Litre of Tears. Very sad movie... =,(.
kanashimi no mukou kishi ni hohoemi ga aru toiu yo tadori tsuku sono saki ni wa nani ga bokura wo matteru?
nigeru tame ja naku yume ou tame ni tabi ni deta hazusa tooi natsu no ano hi ashita sae mieta nara tame iki mo nai kedo nagare ni sakarau fune no you ni ima wa mae he susume
kurushimi no tsukita basho ni shiawase ga matsu toiu yo boku wa mada sagashite iru kisetsu hazure no himawari
kobushi nigirishime asahi wo mateba akai tsume ato ni namida kirari ochiru kodku ni mo nareta nara tsuki akari tayori ni hane naki tsubasa de tobi tatou motto mae he susume
amagumo ga kireta nara nureta michi kagayaku yami dake ga oshiete kureru tsuyoi tsuyoi hikari tsuyoku mae he susume
---------------------------- *translation*
on the opposite coast of sadness is something called a smile but before we can go there, is there something we're waiting for?
in order to chase our dreams, we can't have a reason to run away we've got to go, to that far away summer's day
if we find it tomorrow, we can't sigh because like a boat that opposes the stream we have to wak straight on in a place worn down by sadness something called a miracle, is waiting yet we are still searching for the sunflower that grows at the end of spring
the warrior who awaits the morning light before he can clasp it with red nails, his tears glitter an fall even if we've grown used to loneliness only relying on the light of the moon we have to fly away with featherless wing just go forward, just a little further
as the rainclouds break the wet streets sparkling although it brings only darkness a powerful, powerful light helps push us to walk on
It's not difficult to make a woman happy. A man only needs to be:
1. a friend 2. a companion 3. a lover 4. a brother 5. a father 6. a master 7. a chef 8. an electrician 9. a carpenter 10. a plumber 11. a mechanic 12. a decorator 13. a stylist 14. a sexologist 15. a gynecologist 16. a psychologist 17. a pest exterminator 18. a psychiatrist 19. a healer 20. a good listener 21. an organizer 22. a good father 23. very clean 24. sympathetic 25. athletic 26. warm 27. attentive 28. gallant 29. intelligent 30. funny 31. creative 32. tender 33. strong 34. understanding 35. tolerant 36. prudent 37. ambitious 38. capable 39. courageous 40. determined 41. true 42. dependable43. passionate 44. compassionate
WITHOUT FORGETTING TO:
45. give her compliments regularly 46. love shopping 47. be honest 48. be very rich 49. not stress her out 50. not look at other girls
AND AT THE SAME TIME, YOU MUST ALSO:
51. give her lots of attention, but expect littleyourself 52. give her lots of time, especially time for herself 53. give her lots of space, never worrying 'boutwhere she goes
IT IS VERY IMPORTANT:
54. Never to forget: * birthdays * anniversaries * arrangements she makes
Hari ini akhirnya bisa implementasiin aplikasi yg gw bikin di devicenya... setelah berhari2 i try to connect my PC to that (damn) device dan hasilnya nihil. Baru hari ini bisa nyambung (akhirnyaaaa!!!!!) setelah menyabotase komputer colleagues gw tanpa ngomong ama yg punya... =p Sorry to Francis... hehehe... i use ur computer without asking ur permission... but i've told Benny. Heuheuehe....So... how's my application? Yep, it can work lah! How dare u guess it cannot work? Eh? U don't guess...? Ok2... ^_^ I need to fix the bug again next Monday... (why there are alwys bugs!). Die bugs! Die! I'm gonna spray u =p
Today i wake up late.... My alarm rings at 6.00 am this morning, but i snooze it... n sleep again until 6.50 am!!!! My bus comes at 7.15. I just have 25 minutes to get ready... can u wonder how? I need to skip my breakfast =,(. Not really skip my breakfast... i should bring it to office n have breakfast there. =D
Today i'm happy....Finally (yesterday) i bought a nu cellphone .^_^. with promotion price. Nokia 6280, only $99 @ singtel =p.
Finally i've decided which church i'm gonna commit my self to... I've decided to commit @ Hope of Singapore ^_^ Well, i hope i can grow here... pray 4 me pls? =)
Beberapa hari ini sempat mereview ulang visi yang selama ini gw punya.... Karena kayanya perlu direvisi lagi visinya, mengingat bberapa uda tercapai... Ummm visi gw yg uda tercapai itu yah.. yg gw uda berhasil keluar dari INDO. wekekkee... dan mendarat di singapura dengan selamat.=p dan bisa bekerja disana...
What will i do next? Hmmm... well... I think... # i wanna take mandarin course (after my probation time) In my office now ppl speak in Mandarin.. and i'm the only one who doesn't understand T_T!Huhuhuhuh.. so sad! >_< # i wanna take master program majoring in business administration or business management???? ( @ my 2nd year working) # i wanna be a manager.IT manager i guess.. what else i can be?huh! ( i hope i can reach it in 3 years ) =>
after 3 years in Singapore... what will i do next? Hmmm... let me see... # find some1 to marry me ^_^ LOL (Hey,I guess i should have one that year... i'll be 26 u know.. time to think seriously about marriage =p) # still i want to study? I dunno... but just add to my vision... # go to another country? europe? america?
well... after 3 years i'll review again my vision... whether i'll settle in singapore or move to another country... so many things to learn now... .^_^.
Hari ini di kantor ada orang baru... Hmmm ga bisa disebut org baru sih, soalnya dia kerja di sini duluan drpd gw.. cuman dia beda lokasi... tapi hari ini dia ngantor di sini =p
Ntah knapa ya kl ama org baru tu ngerasa ga nyaman... ga tau yah... ga bisa enjoy aja.. bkn berarti orgnya gimana sih... keliatannya sih baek... orgnya agak bawel.. ramah sih keliatannya.. tapi gw ngerasa ga nyaman aja ama dia..
mungkin karena gw ga ngerti apa yg dia omongin kali ya? huhuhu sedihnya gw.... huhuhu gw agak kesulitan nih dlm hal komunikasi =p dalam hal ini gw jadi pemalu bgt... huhuhu... >_<
coret-coret di waktu luang... detik2 menjelang jam pulang... ... ... uda nganggur... ga tau mo ngapain lagi... kerjaan hari ini uda habis sih... nungguin serial port... ... ... masih sejam lagi ampe jam pulang... ngapain ya enaknya? iseng2 update blog... tapi kaga ada ide yg bisa ditulis... hmm... ... ... nungguin sejam kok lama amat ya? brrr.. dinginnyaa... ... tik...tok.. tik.. tok...
Today i go to play paintball... Aslinya uda males bgt mo bangun n mo pgi ngebayangin sakitnya tar kl kena tembak... =p. Tapi setelah dipikir2 daripada dirumah aja, akhrinya pergi juga.. Sampe di Yishun jam 11.30 an... kepagian 30 menit. Trus yah beli minum bli snack dulu baru nungguin yg laen...Maennya paintball lumayan seru sih... seneng juga walo sakit kena tembak 3 kali =p Dua di tangan kanan n kiri, satu di kaki... huhuhu merah2 n biru2... =p tapi fun lah ^_^
Kita maennya ber 24 orang.. maen 2 game per kelompok (5 klompok). Satu game ada 2 round.Cara maennya sih lumayan gampang... harus jatuhin 2 sasaran tembak punya lawan, dan ambil kotak ke base camp tanpa tertembak. kl kena tembak harus pergi ke tenda medis dulu baru boleh maen lagi... Tadinya sih kirain maennya tu saling tembak ama musuh gitu... hehhe....tapi tadi jg nembakin lawan gt.. cm ga bole slg mendekat. Org ketembak dr jarak jauh aja sakit, apa lagi kl dr jarak deket ya... Pengalaman baru yang unik =p Sayangnya MAHAL! Kita ber 24 maennya habis 5000 peluru =(Hiks.. gitu aja msh kurang lhoh pelurunya =pUda habis duit banyak hari ini... =(
Pulang maen paintball uda sakit2.. Besok pagi2 harus bangun lagi kerja lagi... huhuhuhu....
Today.. genap seminggu bekerja heauheuae... ^_^. Work permit gw uda keluar.. besok tinggal collect the card =) Tomorrow i'll work halfday i guess... bcoz after i collect d card, i want to open a bank account tomorrow also..
Akhirnya ada juga project yg dipercayakan... heauaehuae... I hope i can develop it well =) Wish me luck everyone.. although i hate to admit that i'm lucky.. i just work hard as anyone does. Hehehe....
I really miss my friends in Indo... (Jakarta). Wonder when is d holiday? Hahaha... *baru juga 1 minggu kerja* dohhh..... =p
Huehehehe... akhirnya bisa ngantor juga.... ^_^ setelah skian lama menanti nantikan kapan ya bisa ngantor... Hari pertama ngantor.. keliling2 kantor. liat2 divisi laen.. trus dapet meja + kompi + phone + dll lah buat keperluan ntar... Hari pertama blom ngapa2in... cuman baca buku VB, instal2 software yg perlu, trus bengong... Habis itu lunch... chatting lagi.. trus menghitung waktu pulang kekekke... Bisa browsing tapi ga bis buka friendster nich =(. Tapi ya gpp lah... Pengalaman hari pertama kemaren cukup menyenangkan... Pulang hampir aja ketinggalan bus perushaan... tapi untung masi ditungguin juga....
Hari kedua kerja masuk jem 12.. soalnya paginya ada medical check up dulu... Medical check gw untung dateng agak pagian jadi kaga ngantree banyak... kl ga katanya bisa ampe jem 2... gw pgih jam 8.30 dan selesai mpe jam 11.00, trus k kantor. Perjalanan sejam-an. Med check di periksa, tekanan darah, pernapasan, trus ambil darah buat tes HIV ama chest x-ray buat tes TBC =p Hiks harus kena jarum suntik lagi... sakittt..... serem aja... Masuk ya udah ngulang lagi aktifitas hari pertama =D uda bisa install VB.. kmaren error =(. akhirnya bisa juga.. pdhl ga diapa2in tiba2 bisa lagi.. hueheuehue... mulai baca2 source code... mulai pusing... mulai ngantukk... trus chat deh ujung2nya.. hhihihi... Mo perpanjang visit pass tar sabtu... kl ga bisa di dportasi.. huhu kok EP gw lom jadi2 yah?? T_T
Banyaaakkk bgt hal yg harus gw pelajarin dan gw kuasain dlm wkt singkat... and nobody helps me! I dun understand the system.... I dun know very much about logistics... =,(, dunno the process... yah.. going to learn... =p Kmrn rasanya bobox jadi nyenyak bgt.. cape di perjalanan plg dech... V_V Jem brp uda kerasa ngantuk.. mata uda berat... Oiah... d kantor ga ada kantinnn... jadi harus delivery mkanan atau bawa bekal... GW pilih bawa bekal aja dech.... =p. Biasa deket2 jam 17.17 uda pada siap2 mo cabut smua... =p.
Hari2 penuh rutinitas akan segera dimulai... Where is my final destination? What purpose i want to achieve?
Mengendalikan emosi atau perasaan kadang berasa gampang, kadang kok susah yah.... Kadang kerasa berat banget mengendalikan emosi supaya tidak terpancing sama omongan orang... Lebih mudah reaktif neh daripada proaktif. Kemaren2 tu berasa bgt lhoh pas tmen becanda2 gitu.. tapi yg gw tangkep maksudnya kok ga becanda ya... Gw tau tmen gw becanda.. tapi gw ngerasanya kok kaga becanda... trus dengan susah payah berusaha mengendalikan 'devil' di dalam diri gw supaya dia tidak keluar.. hehehheh... kl ampe keluar kan bahaya.. =p Susah masukinnya lagi ntar =). Hati rasanya mo marah... tapi pikiran berkata 'tenang, kendalikan dirimu'
Kadang mengalami yg namanya pkiran sama hati ga sejalan.. huhu... Kalo uda gitu uda bingung dech.. yang mana yg mo diturutin... kalo pada akhirnya pikiran sama hati tetep ga bisa sejalan... contoh simple dlm kehidupan sehari... misalnya apa ya? Mo beli baju dech atau sepatu... Hati rasanya uda jatuh cinta ama tu barang dari pertama kali ngeliat.. tapi pikiran berkata... umm kayanya agak ga match dech... Beli.. Ngga.. Beli.. Ngga.. Dan biasanya sih ngga jadi beli.. hewhewhewh...
Jadi inget ama satu pernyataan yg gw denger pas nonton Oprah... 'Kalau ragu... artinya TIDAK' Yah simple... kadang gw suka kompromi.. udah tau bukan puzzle yg cocok maen maksa aja... =p Bener ga sih sesimple itu..? Ketika ada keraguan di hati.. artinya tidak/jangan? Bisa ga ya diterapkan ketika jatuh cinta ama seseorang? Hati sih suka.. tapi pikiran kok ga mo kompromi. Hati sih merindukan.. tapi pikiran berkata bukan dia orangnya...
Ketika hati dan pikiran ga sejalan, mana yang harus dituruti?
Minggu lalu kotbah di gereja bicarain tentang bagaimana membangun hubungan dengan mertua supaya (in laws) tidak menjadi (out laws). Sering x orang menikah nih ceritanya pengen lepas dari orang tua... Supaya ortu ga lagi turut campur dalam kehidupan kita...Bisa juga supaya kita bisa membentuk keluarga baru seperti yang kita inginkan (mungkin keluarga yg sekarang tidak seperti yg kita inginkan).
Tetapi buat org yg uda married neh.. dianjurkan supaya tidak lagi tinggal di rumah orang tua ataupun rumah mertua.Why? Soalnya.. namanya juga menikah secara alkitab, berarti meninggalkan orang tua secara fisik, secara emosi dan secara keuangan. Tetapi tetap menghormati dan menghargai orangtua. Bagaimana setelah menikah seorang wanita belajar bergantung pada suaminya. Dan seorang pria belajar menjadi kepala keluarga, menjadi pemimpin dan mengatur keluarga baru bersama pasangannya, dan tidak lagi orang tua yang mengaturkan.Namun sering kali ketika masih tinggal dirumah orang tua atau mertua, mereka tetap menjadi pemegang kendali keluarga.
Secara barat, setelah berkeluarga, anak tidak wajib menafkahi orangtuanya. akan tetapi lebih baik setiap anak punya kesadaran sendiri untuk hal itu.Tetapi perlu dipikiran kondisi finansialnya sendiri.Bila memang tidak mampu untuk menanggung orang tuanya, maka tidak perlu memaksakan diri. Mengusahakan boleh, tetapi dikala harus memilih membayar tagihan sndiri atau tagihan orang tua, tentunya keluarga sendiri harus diprioritaskan diatas orang tua atau mertua.
Ketika dihadapkan pada pilihan sulit...Dalam kapal karam.. di sisi kanan ibu/mertua, disisi kiri istri, siapa yang harus diselamatkan sedangkan hanya punya satu pelampung?Tentu saja istri. Kalau bisa sih ya selamat kan semuanya.. tetapi prioritas utama sekarang sudah beralih dari orang tua kepada pasangan hidup.=D
5 masalah mertua yang harus dihadapi oleh pasangan yang telah menikah:
Today i go to church... we have a street evax ^^ Vonny n I went together to approach indonesian ppl @ orchard rd. We suddenly heard 2 girls spoke indonesian. Then i asked Vonny to sit near them and listen to them. They really spoke indonesian, so i asked them 'dari indo juga ya?' They said 'iya'. Mrk dari jakarta... dan kita ngobrol2 gt... Namanya kl ga salah Puteri, Rina ama Nicky... Puteri ama Rina juga lagi ketemu pas itu ama Nicky... and we invited them to join mooncake festival next week. But they said that they will contact us later... bcoz they want to go to chinatown to see firework next week. They love to drink and go to pub. I guess they will be shocked if they come 4 our mooncake festival =p Yeaa.. but not bad to try huh?
Today my senior has come back from China.. so we start discuss again about my program ^^ I almost done... but there is few bugs show up again! ~_~ oh no! But it's ok! At least next Monday i have something to do =p hehe... One of my colleagues said that my senior is like my 'ta ke' (older brother) Yea... maybe... actually bcoz he is older than me then i rather consider him as elder brother than my boss =p But it's very nice to discuss with him. I feel comfortable and enjoy... maybe because we came from the same country.
Yesterday i activated my XL card =). So my friends in Indo should be happy now... bcoz they can reply my sms often and FREE! But if i want to sms them i MUST pay! Huhuhuh... poor me.... But it's ok, at least i can keep contact with my friends... ^^ So please send me sms-es =p. I would love to read your msgs.. but i don't promise that i will always reply your sms-es.... hehheee..... Next time i'll write about my colleagues.... Let me collect the puzzle first... ^^ Cya!
Everyone fells pain but surely, after suffering satisfaction will arrive Even with sports, studying or other ordeals With life, it's like that for everyone If we can beat the pain, on the other side, a rainbow of happiness awaits us That will definitely become a treasure Let's believe in that
Step by step
When my existence seems to disappear, I will look for the place where I can do the best I can From now'on, I'll deliberate slowly I won't be impatient I won't be greedy I won't give up Because everyone takes things step by step
If I were a flower, then now I'd be a bud I shall treasure the beginning of my youth without any regrets
Deep inside my heart I have mother who always believes in me From now onwards as well, please continue to look after me. I'm sorry to have troubled you so much.
Why did this disease choose me? I cannot carry it, if it's just for the word "fate"
I want to build a time machine and revisit the past I it weren't for this disease, I might even be in love I want to cling to someone's arm so badly
I really don't want to say this such as " I want to go back to how things were before" I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on
Even if it's like that, I still want to stay here Because this is the place where I am
If I look up at the sky after falling down the blue sky is also today stretching limitlessly and smiles at me... I am alive
The sound "ma" "wa" "ba" and "n" have become hard to pronounce. I can only breathe out air instead of saying it so I can't communicate with each others Recently, I have been talking to myself a lot I didn't like it before, but to practice pronouncing, I have been to do it. I will not give up on speeking
Reality is too cruel, too brutal I don't even have the right to dream As I think about the future, the tears will come out again
from 1 litre tear movie
May 23rd, 1988 12:55am. Kifuji Aya 25 years old lay asleep forever. Surrounded by flowers, she passed away
Hari ini pagi2 uda hujan... Turun dari kondo... liat langit kok gelep yah? Terpaksa dech naek lagi buat ngambil payung (ketinggalan). Dan ternyata emang bner hujan... tapi hujannya pas gw uda duduk di dlm bus. Jadinya payungnya agak ga kepake sih... =p tapi gpp dech... males lipet2nya n keringinnya =)
Berasa uda dinginnnn bgt pagi2... tapi tyt d kantor ga sdingin biasanya.. hoho... krn pagi2 uda hujan, jd acnya dikecilin kali ya... Hari ini seperti biasa testing aplikasi lagi di device. Kebetulan colleague gw kaga masuk jd gw bisa monopoli lagi komputernya =p
Masih ada 2 function yg lom bisa... # function buat ngeprint invoice # function buat synchronize database ama database migration. dari pocket database - desktop database - server Huhuhu,... Dari pocket ga bisa langsung masukin k server.. krn beda DBMS. gimana ya bisa menyingkat prosesnya? Dibagian itu masih lom bisa... =,( Duh gimana donk? Ada yg bisa ga? Bantuin gw donk... T_T
Sekarang baru jem [15.15] Masih 2 jem 15 menit lagi baru pulang. Mo ngapain uda butek. Uda donload themes, uda buka2 forum, uda email2... uda chatting... uda abis yg mo dikerjain. Nge-blog dech akhirnya. =p
Pengen donload mp3 sih... tapi takut.... takut ketangkep polisi.hehehe... dsini kl donload2 gitu serem. Soalnya ada 3rd degreenya temennya sodara gw... Jadi kl di frenster namanya uda extended network =p, itu ketangkep pas dia donload2 lagu gt... Trus suru bayar denda $1000 atau gimana gitu.... Wew #_# syereme...
Sebenernya bbrp hr yg lalu ada kejadian yg menyebalkan... Inget pun jadi sebel. Mo ditulis ga ya? -_-' Ceritanya itu, gw iseng2 chat ama satu org, sengaja gw mo bikin marah ni org. Soalnya gw mo tau ni org tu sbnernya kaya apa. Dannnnnn sodara2, kesan awal yg gw tangkep ttg org ini tyt SALAH! * orgnya ga SEBAIK yg dibilang temen gw... * orgnya ga seGENTLE yg dia tunjukkan. * orgnya kl salah, ga mo ngaku salah * ga mo ngalahan kl ama ce.(mlh bilang 'tar bisa jd budak ce!') * too childish * suka ngejelek2 in orang laen (ngejelek2in roommate gw.. ama temen gw yg uda blg dia baek) * pendendam (nginget2 kesalahan org ampe detil bgt walo uda lama berlalu) * suka sok tau ('km pasti pake kartu xx ya') -> es teh bgt sih * suka ngeyel... * ga mo dikritik * ga tau bedanya gentleman ama budak cewek * ember... * ... dan masih byk lagi yg ga mungkin gw sebut satu2 krn kl inget bikin gw makin sebel aja. Dan gw sempat bilang 'nyesel sih uda kenal ama dia ' Sebenernya gw mo bilang, 'nyesel uda percaya ama dia' =p (*salah kata*) tapi uda males ngejelasinnya lagi. biarin dech...
Yang tadinya awal2 gw smpat bingung mana yg harus gw percaya,dia atau roommate gw.... sekarang i can decide... hohoho.... Walo gw juga keras kepala, tapi plg ga masih nge logika lah.. Kl mang gw tau salah ya ga akan ngotot... Haiyo... pantesan aja dia kaga punya tmen cewek. Terang aja kaya gitu mana ada ce yg mo dkt ama dia... heuheuee...
[15.26] <--- Ya ampun baru jalan 11 menit... Duh waktu serasa lambat sekali berjalan... V_V
Haiyohhhh i just typed my fav song's lyrics and when i published it... it cropped! T_T d*mn! So here i write again.. becoz i really like this song ^_^ hehe... The title is Only Human, by K. It's a japanese song... ost 1 Litre of Tears. Very sad movie... =,(.
kanashimi no mukou kishi ni hohoemi ga aru toiu yo tadori tsuku sono saki ni wa nani ga bokura wo matteru?
nigeru tame ja naku yume ou tame ni tabi ni deta hazusa tooi natsu no ano hi ashita sae mieta nara tame iki mo nai kedo nagare ni sakarau fune no you ni ima wa mae he susume
kurushimi no tsukita basho ni shiawase ga matsu toiu yo boku wa mada sagashite iru kisetsu hazure no himawari
kobushi nigirishime asahi wo mateba akai tsume ato ni namida kirari ochiru kodku ni mo nareta nara tsuki akari tayori ni hane naki tsubasa de tobi tatou motto mae he susume
amagumo ga kireta nara nureta michi kagayaku yami dake ga oshiete kureru tsuyoi tsuyoi hikari tsuyoku mae he susume
---------------------------- *translation*
on the opposite coast of sadness is something called a smile but before we can go there, is there something we're waiting for?
in order to chase our dreams, we can't have a reason to run away we've got to go, to that far away summer's day
if we find it tomorrow, we can't sigh because like a boat that opposes the stream we have to wak straight on in a place worn down by sadness something called a miracle, is waiting yet we are still searching for the sunflower that grows at the end of spring
the warrior who awaits the morning light before he can clasp it with red nails, his tears glitter an fall even if we've grown used to loneliness only relying on the light of the moon we have to fly away with featherless wing just go forward, just a little further
as the rainclouds break the wet streets sparkling although it brings only darkness a powerful, powerful light helps push us to walk on
It's not difficult to make a woman happy. A man only needs to be:
1. a friend 2. a companion 3. a lover 4. a brother 5. a father 6. a master 7. a chef 8. an electrician 9. a carpenter 10. a plumber 11. a mechanic 12. a decorator 13. a stylist 14. a sexologist 15. a gynecologist 16. a psychologist 17. a pest exterminator 18. a psychiatrist 19. a healer 20. a good listener 21. an organizer 22. a good father 23. very clean 24. sympathetic 25. athletic 26. warm 27. attentive 28. gallant 29. intelligent 30. funny 31. creative 32. tender 33. strong 34. understanding 35. tolerant 36. prudent 37. ambitious 38. capable 39. courageous 40. determined 41. true 42. dependable43. passionate 44. compassionate
WITHOUT FORGETTING TO:
45. give her compliments regularly 46. love shopping 47. be honest 48. be very rich 49. not stress her out 50. not look at other girls
AND AT THE SAME TIME, YOU MUST ALSO:
51. give her lots of attention, but expect littleyourself 52. give her lots of time, especially time for herself 53. give her lots of space, never worrying 'boutwhere she goes
IT IS VERY IMPORTANT:
54. Never to forget: * birthdays * anniversaries * arrangements she makes
Hari ini akhirnya bisa implementasiin aplikasi yg gw bikin di devicenya... setelah berhari2 i try to connect my PC to that (damn) device dan hasilnya nihil. Baru hari ini bisa nyambung (akhirnyaaaa!!!!!) setelah menyabotase komputer colleagues gw tanpa ngomong ama yg punya... =p Sorry to Francis... hehehe... i use ur computer without asking ur permission... but i've told Benny. Heuheuehe....So... how's my application? Yep, it can work lah! How dare u guess it cannot work? Eh? U don't guess...? Ok2... ^_^ I need to fix the bug again next Monday... (why there are alwys bugs!). Die bugs! Die! I'm gonna spray u =p
Today i wake up late.... My alarm rings at 6.00 am this morning, but i snooze it... n sleep again until 6.50 am!!!! My bus comes at 7.15. I just have 25 minutes to get ready... can u wonder how? I need to skip my breakfast =,(. Not really skip my breakfast... i should bring it to office n have breakfast there. =D
Today i'm happy....Finally (yesterday) i bought a nu cellphone .^_^. with promotion price. Nokia 6280, only $99 @ singtel =p.
Finally i've decided which church i'm gonna commit my self to... I've decided to commit @ Hope of Singapore ^_^ Well, i hope i can grow here... pray 4 me pls? =)
Beberapa hari ini sempat mereview ulang visi yang selama ini gw punya.... Karena kayanya perlu direvisi lagi visinya, mengingat bberapa uda tercapai... Ummm visi gw yg uda tercapai itu yah.. yg gw uda berhasil keluar dari INDO. wekekkee... dan mendarat di singapura dengan selamat.=p dan bisa bekerja disana...
What will i do next? Hmmm... well... I think... # i wanna take mandarin course (after my probation time) In my office now ppl speak in Mandarin.. and i'm the only one who doesn't understand T_T!Huhuhuhuh.. so sad! >_< # i wanna take master program majoring in business administration or business management???? ( @ my 2nd year working) # i wanna be a manager.IT manager i guess.. what else i can be?huh! ( i hope i can reach it in 3 years ) =>
after 3 years in Singapore... what will i do next? Hmmm... let me see... # find some1 to marry me ^_^ LOL (Hey,I guess i should have one that year... i'll be 26 u know.. time to think seriously about marriage =p) # still i want to study? I dunno... but just add to my vision... # go to another country? europe? america?
well... after 3 years i'll review again my vision... whether i'll settle in singapore or move to another country... so many things to learn now... .^_^.
Hari ini di kantor ada orang baru... Hmmm ga bisa disebut org baru sih, soalnya dia kerja di sini duluan drpd gw.. cuman dia beda lokasi... tapi hari ini dia ngantor di sini =p
Ntah knapa ya kl ama org baru tu ngerasa ga nyaman... ga tau yah... ga bisa enjoy aja.. bkn berarti orgnya gimana sih... keliatannya sih baek... orgnya agak bawel.. ramah sih keliatannya.. tapi gw ngerasa ga nyaman aja ama dia..
mungkin karena gw ga ngerti apa yg dia omongin kali ya? huhuhu sedihnya gw.... huhuhu gw agak kesulitan nih dlm hal komunikasi =p dalam hal ini gw jadi pemalu bgt... huhuhu... >_<
coret-coret di waktu luang... detik2 menjelang jam pulang... ... ... uda nganggur... ga tau mo ngapain lagi... kerjaan hari ini uda habis sih... nungguin serial port... ... ... masih sejam lagi ampe jam pulang... ngapain ya enaknya? iseng2 update blog... tapi kaga ada ide yg bisa ditulis... hmm... ... ... nungguin sejam kok lama amat ya? brrr.. dinginnyaa... ... tik...tok.. tik.. tok...
Today i go to play paintball... Aslinya uda males bgt mo bangun n mo pgi ngebayangin sakitnya tar kl kena tembak... =p. Tapi setelah dipikir2 daripada dirumah aja, akhrinya pergi juga.. Sampe di Yishun jam 11.30 an... kepagian 30 menit. Trus yah beli minum bli snack dulu baru nungguin yg laen...Maennya paintball lumayan seru sih... seneng juga walo sakit kena tembak 3 kali =p Dua di tangan kanan n kiri, satu di kaki... huhuhu merah2 n biru2... =p tapi fun lah ^_^
Kita maennya ber 24 orang.. maen 2 game per kelompok (5 klompok). Satu game ada 2 round.Cara maennya sih lumayan gampang... harus jatuhin 2 sasaran tembak punya lawan, dan ambil kotak ke base camp tanpa tertembak. kl kena tembak harus pergi ke tenda medis dulu baru boleh maen lagi... Tadinya sih kirain maennya tu saling tembak ama musuh gitu... hehhe....tapi tadi jg nembakin lawan gt.. cm ga bole slg mendekat. Org ketembak dr jarak jauh aja sakit, apa lagi kl dr jarak deket ya... Pengalaman baru yang unik =p Sayangnya MAHAL! Kita ber 24 maennya habis 5000 peluru =(Hiks.. gitu aja msh kurang lhoh pelurunya =pUda habis duit banyak hari ini... =(
Pulang maen paintball uda sakit2.. Besok pagi2 harus bangun lagi kerja lagi... huhuhuhu....
Today.. genap seminggu bekerja heauheuae... ^_^. Work permit gw uda keluar.. besok tinggal collect the card =) Tomorrow i'll work halfday i guess... bcoz after i collect d card, i want to open a bank account tomorrow also..
Akhirnya ada juga project yg dipercayakan... heauaehuae... I hope i can develop it well =) Wish me luck everyone.. although i hate to admit that i'm lucky.. i just work hard as anyone does. Hehehe....
I really miss my friends in Indo... (Jakarta). Wonder when is d holiday? Hahaha... *baru juga 1 minggu kerja* dohhh..... =p
Huehehehe... akhirnya bisa ngantor juga.... ^_^ setelah skian lama menanti nantikan kapan ya bisa ngantor... Hari pertama ngantor.. keliling2 kantor. liat2 divisi laen.. trus dapet meja + kompi + phone + dll lah buat keperluan ntar... Hari pertama blom ngapa2in... cuman baca buku VB, instal2 software yg perlu, trus bengong... Habis itu lunch... chatting lagi.. trus menghitung waktu pulang kekekke... Bisa browsing tapi ga bis buka friendster nich =(. Tapi ya gpp lah... Pengalaman hari pertama kemaren cukup menyenangkan... Pulang hampir aja ketinggalan bus perushaan... tapi untung masi ditungguin juga....
Hari kedua kerja masuk jem 12.. soalnya paginya ada medical check up dulu... Medical check gw untung dateng agak pagian jadi kaga ngantree banyak... kl ga katanya bisa ampe jem 2... gw pgih jam 8.30 dan selesai mpe jam 11.00, trus k kantor. Perjalanan sejam-an. Med check di periksa, tekanan darah, pernapasan, trus ambil darah buat tes HIV ama chest x-ray buat tes TBC =p Hiks harus kena jarum suntik lagi... sakittt..... serem aja... Masuk ya udah ngulang lagi aktifitas hari pertama =D uda bisa install VB.. kmaren error =(. akhirnya bisa juga.. pdhl ga diapa2in tiba2 bisa lagi.. hueheuehue... mulai baca2 source code... mulai pusing... mulai ngantukk... trus chat deh ujung2nya.. hhihihi... Mo perpanjang visit pass tar sabtu... kl ga bisa di dportasi.. huhu kok EP gw lom jadi2 yah?? T_T
Banyaaakkk bgt hal yg harus gw pelajarin dan gw kuasain dlm wkt singkat... and nobody helps me! I dun understand the system.... I dun know very much about logistics... =,(, dunno the process... yah.. going to learn... =p Kmrn rasanya bobox jadi nyenyak bgt.. cape di perjalanan plg dech... V_V Jem brp uda kerasa ngantuk.. mata uda berat... Oiah... d kantor ga ada kantinnn... jadi harus delivery mkanan atau bawa bekal... GW pilih bawa bekal aja dech.... =p. Biasa deket2 jam 17.17 uda pada siap2 mo cabut smua... =p.
Hari2 penuh rutinitas akan segera dimulai... Where is my final destination? What purpose i want to achieve?
Mengendalikan emosi atau perasaan kadang berasa gampang, kadang kok susah yah.... Kadang kerasa berat banget mengendalikan emosi supaya tidak terpancing sama omongan orang... Lebih mudah reaktif neh daripada proaktif. Kemaren2 tu berasa bgt lhoh pas tmen becanda2 gitu.. tapi yg gw tangkep maksudnya kok ga becanda ya... Gw tau tmen gw becanda.. tapi gw ngerasanya kok kaga becanda... trus dengan susah payah berusaha mengendalikan 'devil' di dalam diri gw supaya dia tidak keluar.. hehehheh... kl ampe keluar kan bahaya.. =p Susah masukinnya lagi ntar =). Hati rasanya mo marah... tapi pikiran berkata 'tenang, kendalikan dirimu'
Kadang mengalami yg namanya pkiran sama hati ga sejalan.. huhu... Kalo uda gitu uda bingung dech.. yang mana yg mo diturutin... kalo pada akhirnya pikiran sama hati tetep ga bisa sejalan... contoh simple dlm kehidupan sehari... misalnya apa ya? Mo beli baju dech atau sepatu... Hati rasanya uda jatuh cinta ama tu barang dari pertama kali ngeliat.. tapi pikiran berkata... umm kayanya agak ga match dech... Beli.. Ngga.. Beli.. Ngga.. Dan biasanya sih ngga jadi beli.. hewhewhewh...
Jadi inget ama satu pernyataan yg gw denger pas nonton Oprah... 'Kalau ragu... artinya TIDAK' Yah simple... kadang gw suka kompromi.. udah tau bukan puzzle yg cocok maen maksa aja... =p Bener ga sih sesimple itu..? Ketika ada keraguan di hati.. artinya tidak/jangan? Bisa ga ya diterapkan ketika jatuh cinta ama seseorang? Hati sih suka.. tapi pikiran kok ga mo kompromi. Hati sih merindukan.. tapi pikiran berkata bukan dia orangnya...
Ketika hati dan pikiran ga sejalan, mana yang harus dituruti?
Minggu lalu kotbah di gereja bicarain tentang bagaimana membangun hubungan dengan mertua supaya (in laws) tidak menjadi (out laws). Sering x orang menikah nih ceritanya pengen lepas dari orang tua... Supaya ortu ga lagi turut campur dalam kehidupan kita...Bisa juga supaya kita bisa membentuk keluarga baru seperti yang kita inginkan (mungkin keluarga yg sekarang tidak seperti yg kita inginkan).
Tetapi buat org yg uda married neh.. dianjurkan supaya tidak lagi tinggal di rumah orang tua ataupun rumah mertua.Why? Soalnya.. namanya juga menikah secara alkitab, berarti meninggalkan orang tua secara fisik, secara emosi dan secara keuangan. Tetapi tetap menghormati dan menghargai orangtua. Bagaimana setelah menikah seorang wanita belajar bergantung pada suaminya. Dan seorang pria belajar menjadi kepala keluarga, menjadi pemimpin dan mengatur keluarga baru bersama pasangannya, dan tidak lagi orang tua yang mengaturkan.Namun sering kali ketika masih tinggal dirumah orang tua atau mertua, mereka tetap menjadi pemegang kendali keluarga.
Secara barat, setelah berkeluarga, anak tidak wajib menafkahi orangtuanya. akan tetapi lebih baik setiap anak punya kesadaran sendiri untuk hal itu.Tetapi perlu dipikiran kondisi finansialnya sendiri.Bila memang tidak mampu untuk menanggung orang tuanya, maka tidak perlu memaksakan diri. Mengusahakan boleh, tetapi dikala harus memilih membayar tagihan sndiri atau tagihan orang tua, tentunya keluarga sendiri harus diprioritaskan diatas orang tua atau mertua.
Ketika dihadapkan pada pilihan sulit...Dalam kapal karam.. di sisi kanan ibu/mertua, disisi kiri istri, siapa yang harus diselamatkan sedangkan hanya punya satu pelampung?Tentu saja istri. Kalau bisa sih ya selamat kan semuanya.. tetapi prioritas utama sekarang sudah beralih dari orang tua kepada pasangan hidup.=D
5 masalah mertua yang harus dihadapi oleh pasangan yang telah menikah:
