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Goals
January
* Read bible Genesis 1 - Exodus 12, Matthew 1 - Mark 3
* Read 1 photoshop book (at least)
* Buy gifts for my family
February
* Take a language course
* Read bible Exodus 13 - Numbers 2, Mark 4 - Luke 16
March
* Learn IELTS
* Read bible Numbers 3 - Deuteronomy 28, Luke 17 - Acts 3
* Pay Church Camp Fee by end of the month
April
* Unit Easter Camp (10-12 Apr)
* Read bible Deuteronomy 29 - 1 Sam 5, Acts 4 - Romans 6
* Take a mandarin course
* Write a daily devotional journal
May
* Start reading SAP books
* Write a daily devotional journal
June
* Church Camp (11-14 June)
* Jakarta (27-30 June)
* Write a daily devotional journal
July
* Exercise!!!
* Write a daily devotional journal
August
* Go Holiday KK (8-11 Agt)
* Write a daily devotional journal
* Exercise
September
* Parent's coming
* Write a daily devotional journal
* Exercise
October
* Exercise
* Write a daily devotional journal
November
* Exercise
* Run 5km
* Write a daily devotional journal
December
* Exercise
* Run 10km
* Take IELTS Test
* Write a daily devotional journal
* Resolution Review
Sometimes I may feel that God is distant but in fact God is always there for me. He is always with me even though sometimes I can't feel His presence.
A lot of time we depend on feeling alone rather than faith.
God sometimes hide his face from us to test us. Are we still able to trust Him, to worship Him even when we can't feel Him?
My feeling can't justify whether God is with me or not. To know the fact that God is with me no matter what I feel is relieved me. When I can't feel God's presence, I have to exercise my faith.
We learn to trust God when God seems far away from us.
Jesus himself experienced that The Father was distant for a moment when Jesus took all human's sins.
Feeling that God is distant usually is a test that God gives us.
Relationship is tested with a separation.
How can I stay focused on God's presence, especially when He feels distant?
By reading God's word I'll stay focus. Reading God's words and claiming His promises will keep me close and keep my faith in God. Clinging on God's promises will strengthen me.
My fave quote:
God is real, no matter how I feel.
My fave verse:
Hebrews 13:5 (New International Version)
5Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you."
I have not been writing what I learn from reading lately.
What I write here will be much behind what I read now :p. I'm busy, I have no time to write and I am lazy. I just don't have the mood to write.
Well since I have a little bit now, I'll blog about Worship, what this chapter talks about.
One thing that I learned was each of us has a different style of worshiping God.
We can' t worship using other's people style. I need to worship using the true nature of me which God has created me for. A lot of time during worship I'm getting distracted by myself, my thoughts, and my worries what others will see me.
It prevents me of being the true me during worship. I can't be free.
Worshiping God is about God and I alone. In worshiping God there is only God and I, I shouldn't care much about what people see me but I should focus on God alone. Concentrate!
Worshiping God is also about sacrifice. Getting out of my bed when I still want to sleep more or when I feel tired. God took pleasure in many sacrifices of worship.
My fave quote:
The best style of worship is the one that most authentically represents your love for God.
My fave verse:
John 4:23-24 (The Message)
23-24"It's who you are and the way you live that count before God. Your worship must engage your spirit in the pursuit of truth. That's the kind of people the Father is out looking for: those who are simply and honestly themselves before him in their worship. God is sheer being itself—Spirit. Those who worship him must do it out of their very being, their spirits, their true selves, in adoration."
I'm relieved that to lose weight is not one of God's commandment.
:D
and I think in the wedding vows we need to add in one more sentence:
In the name of God, I, (Name), take you, (Name), to be my (husband/wife/spouse), to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or worse, for richer or poorer, in sickness and in health, whether you are fat or slim, to love and to cherish, until we are parted by death. This is my solemn vow.
:)
This is just my small piece of thought.
Note: The wedding vows is taken from this website.
It has been 3 years since I came to Singapore. I think when I browse through my blog entry, I have not posted any thanksgiving about how God has blessed me so much.
When first time I came to Singapore, I came alone with limited amount of $$, one way ticket (I had confidence and faith in finding a job in Singapore) and of course bundle of resumes. My journey to Singapore seemed quite smooth and easy. There was a relative that I could stay with during searching jobs. A lot of little miracles happened in my life like I could go to my relative unit by myself even though I had no key (To take lift to their unit we need a special key. Without the key, you won't be able to press the floor no.) Amazingly without knowing all those thing, I met a cleaning aunty on the level 4 that help me to press my relative floor no. 8. :)
My process of finding job was relatively fast. The first week in Singapore I spent with looking around, building network, go to see new places, etc. Applying jobs online was my daily activity. I remembered I bought a newspaper on Saturday and mark few jobs opening that suited me. I applied all of them by Wednesday. The next day one of the company called me for interview. I went down for interview on Friday and was accepted immediately on the very same day! They gave me the salary that I requested and they would apply the pass for me. :) I was so happy. It was my first interview and I got the job. Thank God! That was only my second week in Singapore and God has opened a way for me.
My process of finding new place to stay was also quite smooth and everything was just nice. I could find new place which was quite near to my office. Time flies, of course God blessed me so much with nice colleagues and nice boss. I applied Singapore PR and the process and it was approve within 2 months.
I'm holding a second job now. I also had only one interview and I got the job. I am very thankful to God for my current job. It is much much better than my previous one.
I believe that God is with us, nothing can be against us. There is a verse that encourage me a lot:
Matthew 6:33 (New International Version)
33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
In everything when I put God first and put Him as the center of my life, the rest He will give to me. Everything will be just nice, smooth and sweet.
After learning to talk to God everytime everywhere, in this chapter I learn conversation topic with God.
The topic is everything.
So I can talk to God everytime everywhere and about everything! :)
I was enlightened about some fact that all the bible characters are not perfect.
They complained, grumbled, negotiated, accusing and arguing with God.
I wondered why their complains, grumbling etc was written in the bible. And why righteous people like them did such thing. I didn't get the answer that time but when I read this chapter, there was a click.
God wants us to talk to him honesty about our feeling, our thoughts and everything.
He doesn't want us to act as someone else.
I am amazed with the fact that:
God let Abraham negotiated with Him when God wanted to destroy Sodom.
God listened patiently to David's accusation of unfairness, betrayal, and abandonment.
God did not slay Jeremiah when he claimed that God had tricked him.
Job was allowed to vent his bitterness during his ordeal and in the end God defended job for being honest.
And what made me amazed the most is God's conversation with Moses in Exodus 33:12-17.
Here what it says:
Exodus 33:12-17 (The Message)
12-13 Moses said to God, "Look, you tell me, 'Lead this people,' but you don't let me know whom you're going to send with me. You tell me, 'I know you well and you are special to me.' If I am so special to you, let me in on your plans. That way, I will continue being special to you. Don't forget, this is your people, your responsibility."
14God said, "My presence will go with you. I'll see the journey to the end."
15-16 Moses said, "If your presence doesn't take the lead here, call this trip off right now. How else will it be known that you're with me in this, with me and your people? Are you traveling with us or not? How else will we know that we're special, I and your people, among all other people on this planet Earth?"
17God said to Moses: "All right. Just as you say; this also I will do, for I know you well and you are special to me. I know you by name."
When I read the verses I felt that Moses was so frank to God. I felt that he was being rude.
But God can handle that kind of frankness.
When I read all those thing I feel "WOW". Amazing.
:)
Friendship with God is what I should desire the most.
My fav quote:
Intimate friendship with God is a choice, not an accident. You are as close to God as you choose to be.
Personally for me a definition of a best friend is a person whom I can be honest with.
I can share and show them the true me without trying to be someone else.
To a best friend I will:
Talk about everything without thinking a lot
The first person I'll find to tell her/ him my story
I'll be there for him/ her to listen back to their story/ complains etc.
I'll enjoy a lot of quality time together
I'll try to make them happy.
Being God's best friends is by talking to God every time every where. Involving Him in everything that we do. Having a constant conversation with Him.
The bible says to pray all the time. Which means talking to God all the time in our mind in our heart.
We do not need to be in secluded places and having a time alone with God.
But in crowded MRT we can also have a conversation with God.
I was trying to practice constant conversation with God and try to be able to feel His presence everytime everywhere.
It's maybe easy in the morning (in the MRT on my way to work) because I'll be reading book and I'll be reminded about God. But it is difficult for me to remember God during office hour.
I'll realize back when I'm on my way back home, I'll be thinking what should I do at home and I'll always remember to blog about what I learn this morning/ yesterday/ what happened today.
It's a reflection time for me. And I'll just realize that during the office hour I didn't feel God's presence or I didn't try to engage in a conversation with God.
Except when I blog in office.
Blogging is a time when I do my self reflection and God will talk to me a lot during my self reflection.
How to remind myself during my office hour to talk to God?
Maybe I should paste some notes on my monitor screen to remind me about God.
So that the first thing I saw when I sit on my desk is that note and I'll remember to give thank to God or talking to God eventhough just to tell Him what I'm going to have for lunch or what I have for lunch or what I feel about my work.
:)
The second thing to build friendship with God is to meditate God's word day and night through out the day.
Hmm I'll think what my best friend doing and how is he/ she right now. Mostly when I have nothing I'll remember to contact her to have a chat. I think it's the same if God is my best friend. I'll remember talking to him. Even I'll love his word and read it again and again. Thinking about it again and again.
If I am in love with somebody, I'll think about him a lot. If he sent me SMS or a love letter, I'll want to read it again and again. I'll never be bored/ sick of it.
Even though I've read it many times I still can smile when I read it. I'm still happy to read it.
Just to read it again make my heart warm.
I hope that it works the same way with the Word of God. :)
Sometimes I may feel that God is distant but in fact God is always there for me. He is always with me even though sometimes I can't feel His presence.
A lot of time we depend on feeling alone rather than faith.
God sometimes hide his face from us to test us. Are we still able to trust Him, to worship Him even when we can't feel Him?
My feeling can't justify whether God is with me or not. To know the fact that God is with me no matter what I feel is relieved me. When I can't feel God's presence, I have to exercise my faith.
We learn to trust God when God seems far away from us.
Jesus himself experienced that The Father was distant for a moment when Jesus took all human's sins.
Feeling that God is distant usually is a test that God gives us.
Relationship is tested with a separation.
How can I stay focused on God's presence, especially when He feels distant?
By reading God's word I'll stay focus. Reading God's words and claiming His promises will keep me close and keep my faith in God. Clinging on God's promises will strengthen me.
My fave quote:
God is real, no matter how I feel.
My fave verse:
Hebrews 13:5 (New International Version)
5Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you."
I have not been writing what I learn from reading lately.
What I write here will be much behind what I read now :p. I'm busy, I have no time to write and I am lazy. I just don't have the mood to write.
Well since I have a little bit now, I'll blog about Worship, what this chapter talks about.
One thing that I learned was each of us has a different style of worshiping God.
We can' t worship using other's people style. I need to worship using the true nature of me which God has created me for. A lot of time during worship I'm getting distracted by myself, my thoughts, and my worries what others will see me.
It prevents me of being the true me during worship. I can't be free.
Worshiping God is about God and I alone. In worshiping God there is only God and I, I shouldn't care much about what people see me but I should focus on God alone. Concentrate!
Worshiping God is also about sacrifice. Getting out of my bed when I still want to sleep more or when I feel tired. God took pleasure in many sacrifices of worship.
My fave quote:
The best style of worship is the one that most authentically represents your love for God.
My fave verse:
John 4:23-24 (The Message)
23-24"It's who you are and the way you live that count before God. Your worship must engage your spirit in the pursuit of truth. That's the kind of people the Father is out looking for: those who are simply and honestly themselves before him in their worship. God is sheer being itself—Spirit. Those who worship him must do it out of their very being, their spirits, their true selves, in adoration."
I'm relieved that to lose weight is not one of God's commandment.
:D
and I think in the wedding vows we need to add in one more sentence:
In the name of God, I, (Name), take you, (Name), to be my (husband/wife/spouse), to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or worse, for richer or poorer, in sickness and in health, whether you are fat or slim, to love and to cherish, until we are parted by death. This is my solemn vow.
:)
This is just my small piece of thought.
Note: The wedding vows is taken from this website.
It has been 3 years since I came to Singapore. I think when I browse through my blog entry, I have not posted any thanksgiving about how God has blessed me so much.
When first time I came to Singapore, I came alone with limited amount of $$, one way ticket (I had confidence and faith in finding a job in Singapore) and of course bundle of resumes. My journey to Singapore seemed quite smooth and easy. There was a relative that I could stay with during searching jobs. A lot of little miracles happened in my life like I could go to my relative unit by myself even though I had no key (To take lift to their unit we need a special key. Without the key, you won't be able to press the floor no.) Amazingly without knowing all those thing, I met a cleaning aunty on the level 4 that help me to press my relative floor no. 8. :)
My process of finding job was relatively fast. The first week in Singapore I spent with looking around, building network, go to see new places, etc. Applying jobs online was my daily activity. I remembered I bought a newspaper on Saturday and mark few jobs opening that suited me. I applied all of them by Wednesday. The next day one of the company called me for interview. I went down for interview on Friday and was accepted immediately on the very same day! They gave me the salary that I requested and they would apply the pass for me. :) I was so happy. It was my first interview and I got the job. Thank God! That was only my second week in Singapore and God has opened a way for me.
My process of finding new place to stay was also quite smooth and everything was just nice. I could find new place which was quite near to my office. Time flies, of course God blessed me so much with nice colleagues and nice boss. I applied Singapore PR and the process and it was approve within 2 months.
I'm holding a second job now. I also had only one interview and I got the job. I am very thankful to God for my current job. It is much much better than my previous one.
I believe that God is with us, nothing can be against us. There is a verse that encourage me a lot:
Matthew 6:33 (New International Version)
33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
In everything when I put God first and put Him as the center of my life, the rest He will give to me. Everything will be just nice, smooth and sweet.
After learning to talk to God everytime everywhere, in this chapter I learn conversation topic with God.
The topic is everything.
So I can talk to God everytime everywhere and about everything! :)
I was enlightened about some fact that all the bible characters are not perfect.
They complained, grumbled, negotiated, accusing and arguing with God.
I wondered why their complains, grumbling etc was written in the bible. And why righteous people like them did such thing. I didn't get the answer that time but when I read this chapter, there was a click.
God wants us to talk to him honesty about our feeling, our thoughts and everything.
He doesn't want us to act as someone else.
I am amazed with the fact that:
God let Abraham negotiated with Him when God wanted to destroy Sodom.
God listened patiently to David's accusation of unfairness, betrayal, and abandonment.
God did not slay Jeremiah when he claimed that God had tricked him.
Job was allowed to vent his bitterness during his ordeal and in the end God defended job for being honest.
And what made me amazed the most is God's conversation with Moses in Exodus 33:12-17.
Here what it says:
Exodus 33:12-17 (The Message)
12-13 Moses said to God, "Look, you tell me, 'Lead this people,' but you don't let me know whom you're going to send with me. You tell me, 'I know you well and you are special to me.' If I am so special to you, let me in on your plans. That way, I will continue being special to you. Don't forget, this is your people, your responsibility."
14God said, "My presence will go with you. I'll see the journey to the end."
15-16 Moses said, "If your presence doesn't take the lead here, call this trip off right now. How else will it be known that you're with me in this, with me and your people? Are you traveling with us or not? How else will we know that we're special, I and your people, among all other people on this planet Earth?"
17God said to Moses: "All right. Just as you say; this also I will do, for I know you well and you are special to me. I know you by name."
When I read the verses I felt that Moses was so frank to God. I felt that he was being rude.
But God can handle that kind of frankness.
When I read all those thing I feel "WOW". Amazing.
:)
Friendship with God is what I should desire the most.
My fav quote:
Intimate friendship with God is a choice, not an accident. You are as close to God as you choose to be.
Personally for me a definition of a best friend is a person whom I can be honest with.
I can share and show them the true me without trying to be someone else.
To a best friend I will:
Talk about everything without thinking a lot
The first person I'll find to tell her/ him my story
I'll be there for him/ her to listen back to their story/ complains etc.
I'll enjoy a lot of quality time together
I'll try to make them happy.
Being God's best friends is by talking to God every time every where. Involving Him in everything that we do. Having a constant conversation with Him.
The bible says to pray all the time. Which means talking to God all the time in our mind in our heart.
We do not need to be in secluded places and having a time alone with God.
But in crowded MRT we can also have a conversation with God.
I was trying to practice constant conversation with God and try to be able to feel His presence everytime everywhere.
It's maybe easy in the morning (in the MRT on my way to work) because I'll be reading book and I'll be reminded about God. But it is difficult for me to remember God during office hour.
I'll realize back when I'm on my way back home, I'll be thinking what should I do at home and I'll always remember to blog about what I learn this morning/ yesterday/ what happened today.
It's a reflection time for me. And I'll just realize that during the office hour I didn't feel God's presence or I didn't try to engage in a conversation with God.
Except when I blog in office.
Blogging is a time when I do my self reflection and God will talk to me a lot during my self reflection.
How to remind myself during my office hour to talk to God?
Maybe I should paste some notes on my monitor screen to remind me about God.
So that the first thing I saw when I sit on my desk is that note and I'll remember to give thank to God or talking to God eventhough just to tell Him what I'm going to have for lunch or what I have for lunch or what I feel about my work.
:)
The second thing to build friendship with God is to meditate God's word day and night through out the day.
Hmm I'll think what my best friend doing and how is he/ she right now. Mostly when I have nothing I'll remember to contact her to have a chat. I think it's the same if God is my best friend. I'll remember talking to him. Even I'll love his word and read it again and again. Thinking about it again and again.
If I am in love with somebody, I'll think about him a lot. If he sent me SMS or a love letter, I'll want to read it again and again. I'll never be bored/ sick of it.
Even though I've read it many times I still can smile when I read it. I'm still happy to read it.
Just to read it again make my heart warm.
I hope that it works the same way with the Word of God. :)
